I have no idea what to do. There’s this guy who has been a constant in my life for 14 years. We have dated but every time he does something very hurtful. Things that destroyed my life life ghosting me when I was hospitalized and two weeks after my grandfather died. After about 2 years of him apologizing and messaging me I gave things another go. This time was hard cause my family hates him and he never tried to apologize to them for what he did. He says he doesn’t have to since we are 28 but I hate being in the middle . Is just my mom and sister everyone else in my family is dead or in another country . Is so hard for me because I hate the judgment I get from them and him. I decided to end things cause he just had a lot of trust issues . Every day I felt like I was in an interview. However he is not a bad guy he just has had alot of trauma. Which I have tried to understand but I just can’t anymore because I want to be alone I want to do me. However I know if I say this I know he’ll leave for good and when I think of that of telling him I get so sad I feel this awfull pain cause I don’t want to loose him . Then everything comes back and I reread what I just typed and I know I would tell someone else to leave . But somehow I just don’t know how or what to do