After breakup Vent!

After my ex and i broke up I found out that he had previously touched his exes daughter who he has a son with….his daughters mother (the one he’s currently with) knew of this whole thing went to court and everything! STILL allows him to be around her girls when i have proof of all the shit she’s said about him….basically scared that he would touch his own daughters? And they have an active TRO! Yeah you’re thinking how does this concern me? Because we battled over 2 years she gave me complete fucken hell all to be back with a child molester? She wished death upon our unborn child (which I miscarried) & I never caught wind of this til after our breakup! This makes me sick because this happened to me at 9 years old! & now everything makes sense! He never wanted to be around my nieces especially the one that was 6 years old because that’s how old his exes daughter was when it happened to her…he clearly used the excuse that “I don’t wanna be around no one’s kids cus I’m not with mine” when really who knows what if could have been! I believe our breakup was a blessing in disguise I know it’s not my problem anymore it’s hers now I just wish I knew sooner because I would have never wasted two years of my life!!! The constant abuse emotionally & physically, the lies, the bullshit! Now speaking on this I’m able to put it behind me now getting this off my chest is Goanna help me HEAL but now I will never ever trust a man again, idk if I will be able to! This has taught me that you never really know a person and there past….you never know what dark secrets they have! & last but not least this has taught me you cannot love anyone if you don’t love yourself, you keep having gf after gf kids after kids!!! If you aren’t healed you can’t love yourself then no one is able to love you!