Onlyfans regret help?!! Pls

Hi everyone. When I was 19 I made an onlyfans and seeking arrangement account to try and reclaim my sexuality after my parents rejected me after I lost my virginity to my ex boyfriend. We broke up and I made the account because they took away my university money (because I lost my virginity) and I was like fuck you i need money so I’ll use my sexuality.

It was a really horrible experience with a lot of horrible men trying to take advantage of me, and I am quite weak and very obedient so I was taken advantage of quite a lot. I kissed a 70-year-old man. I gave pictures of my beautiful body to some really nasty characters, and I regret it so much. I feel so much sadness for that version of myself and I can’t imagine telling someone I’m with in the future about it but I want to be transparent.

Can someone help me with how to relieve this sadness and guilt? It really is consuming me and I don’t know how to fix it. I’m going to therapy soon but I’m just so heartbroken about it.