Venting and pain

Last night, for instance, I got a pain what felt like my ovaries…maybe I’m crazy but it’s like a sharp spasm. Hurts for a few then passes. Also makes the mirror part of my back tender when it happens, it’s weird. I do not always have a period, sometimes I have it normally for a few months— then I go to one day every other month or like one day a month super light. I’m just tired of stressing about it. I’m internally always sad because I just don’t think I’ll ever have kids. I pray a lot for guidance and I know go to a doctor even if I did….what to get shots and drugged up to make my hormones all out of wack. I’m just drained, exhausted. On top of all this my appetite picked up like I’ll be super hungry, craving foods—even just more tired lately. Super off for me….So I just took a pregnancy test (cheap one) just to see it was so quick to say no, I tossed it out. Can’t figure out why I’m randomly super hungry time to time, always tired. I’m just so stressed…