7/11 ... I had just heard your heart at 166 beats per minute at 10:32am. Yet later that days I lost you. My husband had arrived at the hospital just in time. I didnt want to go through it alone. He saw you come out, you were only 11 weeks 4 days but you were the most precious baby to us. I had to undergo a D&C soon after. I cry but not as much as I thought I would. I feel the weeks to come I will feel it all and my world will come crumbling down on me. Im trying to be strong for my 4 kids but when I find myself alone I cant help but cry.