My husband and I have been married for a year. Leading up to our marriage, we both wanted a very God centered marriage. We loved each other and did pre marital counseling and honestly talked about every issue that we could think would happen in marriage, like expectations for sex, finances, household chores, family drama, etc. after the wedding, things are much different now. I feel like all of the counseling was for nothing, because all the things we talked about he does not help me with. Most of the financial responsibility falls on me. He’s also just genuinely a mean and very critical person. He has an extremely short fuse, and while he has never physically hurt me, he has trashed some of our doors and tvs and sometimes yells and screams until I feel like I need to leave and go for a drive out of fear or threatens to break things if I don’t talk to him, but the problem at that point is I don’t feel comfortable talking to him when he’s elevated to that point. I know I have issues and problems too, but I also feel like there’s a line of respect that you shouldn’t cross with a partner even when your having an argument. He always apologizes and we pray together for things to get better, but they never do and steps are not taken to address the issues. I know it’s only been a year, and I love him dearly and I know he loves me. I don’t feel comfortable bringing a child into this situation, so I’m glad we don’t have any at this point even though I know we both have wanted a child. Everyone says the first year of marriage is the hardest so I’m trying to keep holding out and keep praying and trying not to let my heart grow so cold but I honestly don’t know if anything is going to change. The Bible states that there not a lot of reasons for divorce besides infidelity, and that is not in our relationship. I just want to do what God wants me to do whatever that may be. I don’t know how to keep going in this marriage without me going insane or just giving up on life completely, but I want to follow Christ no matter what. He is not willing to do couples therapy either. I know there not really anything anyone can say to make anything better, but if anyone reads this I just wanted to say thanks for letting me vent a little and maybe say a prayer for me and my husband? And maybe a prayer if we are suppose to be together. Thank you and God bless.💕