I don’t know where to start….

My boyfriend and i are now pretty much constantly bickering.. and I am sick of it… it is over stupid shit I will sigh or say one fucking word or it is my tone/ facial expressions or I am being too negative or cursing too much and he will get mad.. then I get mad because he is mad and then we both shut down and it is a viscous cycle. so there is little respect from both him and me at this point… sadly this has just turned south… other then this bullshit he is amazing, funny, handsome, smart… I really do love him… that is probably why I want to leave before I start to hate him… we have been through a lot together… I had a miscarriage in February and I think it ruined us… it definitely broke me…

About 2 months ago he said something in a fight and it kinda turned my feeling off for him… then about 2 weeks later I found out I was pregnant and I have just been regretting everything since… I feel so trapped now…

I don’t have family or friends here… I moved to his side of the country about 6 months ago… i left a really good job (didn’t pay worth a fuck yet but I could work my way up) and I left my housekeeping business behind for him and I am homesick even though I have nothing over there except my crazy family that I don’t to talk to… but at least I know the area…

he doesn’t want me telling anyone I am pregnant so I don’t “ knark him off” we are living at his family’s house right now… so I will get kicked out if they find out not him his place is safe here… I can’t find a fucking job over here I have applied everywhere so I am freaking out about that and he won’t make an effort to go to work… I feel like I can’t motivate him… he was a different person before we got to his family’s house…. I don’t know what to do and I am trapped here now because of the baby…. I’m such a fucking idiot I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore…. I’m so sick of all of this.. just wtf

Yes we used protection.. neither of them were planned…

He has a part time job I am trying to motivate him to work full time and I am trying to get a job and have actively been looking for a job the entire time I have been here I had a job for a few months but they were slow and let me go..

we have both also been doing a side job but that is held up because of shipping issues.. I am also taking classes right now…

Also no we have been paying bills/ rent we have been buying household items for everyone 6 other people and I cook for everyone 1/2 of the time and I do 80% of the cleaning

My boyfriend helps with some of the chores but yes I agree I want to move out I did not want to come here… that has been the plan this entire time… but now I am just deciding get my own place or try to get one with him?