So my birth went so good except I had to have an episiotomy but about 20 hours after he was born he was admitted into the nicu the next day we found out he had a virus called Haemophilus influenzae if it wasn’t caught when it was it would have been deadly then 4 days after I was discharged I was readmitted into the hospital for the same infection it took the hospital 8 hours to break my fever it was 105 when I went in I was there for 5 days now me and baby boy are healthy but I’m constantly scared that this infection is gonna come back it’s also hard bc my husband is 300+ miles away at work he was off work when I went into labor then was here for 3 weeks it’s so hard on both of us him being so far any advice on how to cope or how to keep from getting postpartum depression I found myself giving up on myself I stopped hydration I stopped pumping I didn’t even feel like taking showers now my supply is almost completely dried I feel like I’ve failed him bc he does so good with breast milk and the formula hurts his stomach what do I do to get it back up can I get back up?????