last year i had my first abnormal pap at my yearly gyno appointment. when i can back again a year later (january) i had another abnormal pap so my doctor did a colposcopy. first off is anyone else traumatized from their colposcopy?? mine took almost a half hour bc i was freaking out so badly and bc of the pain. i have a history of sexual abuse so these kind of appointment are already hard enough for me but i’ve now qualified to have my next colposcopy under anesthesia because i freaked out so bad. anyways, during the procedure my dr found 2 lesions on my cervix which were biopsied. i can’t remember if she said they ended up being grade 2 or 3 lesions but she said the next grade would be cancer. i’m 23 so she told me i could get the 3 HPV shots and see if that helps “reverse” anything but could also risk things developing more or do the LEAP. i’m doing the shots but i told her i got the first dose of HPV shot in 2020 and then covid hit so i never got the second 2. she told me to just restart them but the pharmacist went ahead and gave me the second shot anyways and said it would be fine. i’ve never had any symptoms of anything i guess? my period is always regular, i get cramps every so often but do feel some cycles they’re getting worse. on monday morning when i wiped after i peed the paper looked faintly pink which alarmed me bc i didn’t think i was due for my period yet. i checked my app and it said it was due in 9 days so i just kinda figured it was coming early bc sometimes it will come a few days earlier. rest of the day i checked when i wiped and never saw anything more. next couple of days were the same, it was every so often i saw some pink but now the past couple of days it’s definitely blood but it’s not enough to come out onto the panty liner i’ve been wearing, only when i wipe. i’ve never had early spotting before and definitely no chance of pregnancy. i have no cramps or pain. i have also noticed in the past 2 weeks that sometimes it’s a little hard to pee. i sit down and just don’t automatically start i kind of have to mentally tell myself to relax and do it?? i’ve felt like that with a uti but it doesn’t hurt/ache. i feel like i’ve also had more discharge when i’ve wiped and it looks like what i think maybe the ovulating discharge looks like? milky i guess? i know i should obviously just go to the doctor but i’m not financially able to at the moment unless it’s something i should genuinely be concerned about and not a wasted trip. i do have my colposcopy scheduled for early october and will thankfully be put to sleep. i just don’t know if these are things i should be worried about or just things to keep an eye on until my appointment. thank you in advance :/