I’m currently 8 weeks pregnant and my partner and I had our dating scan earlier this week 💖

Afterwards we called our parents to let them know our little peanut has a heartbeat!

When we spoke with my mother, I was a bit anxious. She didn’t react well when we first announced the pregnancy (due to it being a high risk when let our parents know at the four week mark incase I needed extra help or whatever). At that time, she hissed at me and said “you’re not [pregnant] are you?” Followed by, “it would have been nice to know earlier”.

She hasn’t spoken to me since, except to ring me up and scream at me that she has never been more upset and she cried the whole way home.

I felt l was 16 and had messed up. My partner and I are both 35 and this is a very wanted pregnancy.

Fast forward to this week, I’m now 8 weeks and had the scan, so thinking I’m doing the right thing, call my mother to let her know about the scan.

Well.

She screamed at me that I “had no right to tell ALL those people about the pregnancy” (all those people are my partner’s immediate family). And “how can she be happy for me when she’s had so much sadness in her life” (my dad passed away unexpectedly a few years ago).

She’s still yet to congratulate me, ask how I’m going etc.

I feel a mix of anger, disappointment, sadness. But also fear. Currently I’m terrified to tell any of my friends. We are planning on waiting another few weeks but I’m even scared to do that.

What is supposed to be a joyous time is currently not that joyous 😢