I’ve had issues with endometriosis and PCOS, got a cyst removed in January then got pregnant and lost the baby in June. I don’t know why it’s taking me so long to heal but I’m always really sad. I noticed I feel sad whenever I see a baby or someone who is pregnant. I am really afraid of being a bitter person. I just don’t know how to stop the negative emotions.

My husband and I have been trying for a while. My sister-in-law and I are close friends. She got pregnant from a one-night stand and was planning on getting an abortion. She ended up keeping the baby but the entire pregnancy I’ve listened to her complaining about how much she doesn’t want her baby and it just makes me so mad. She doesn’t realize the blessing she has because it’s not that easy for everyone. I feel like it’s so unattractive to compare myself to other people. I just can’t help it when it comes to being pregnant. I need help 😞 How do I stop the negative emotions 😭 everyone has a different path. I just feel so angry especially at God for not protecting my baby

Edit: Obviously the reason I wrote the post is because I don’t WANT to feel the way I do. I was asking for advice on how to move forward. I’m also in therapy already but I was hoping women who have been through similar situations could give advice on how they personally stopped themselves from feeling bad or comparing.