hi ok so i just did it for the first time, it was good nice and rude at the same time, did it with protection and without it

the guy said he didnt finish inside me but i still took the pill just to be safe😭 im having all kind of emptions right now and idk if it is ok to feel like this or not!

Also the guy, we were once in a situationship (it lasted more than a year) we ended it but we still talk and hang out with our friends and he is the only one i feel comfortable with this kind of stuff (blowjobs and bla bla) but the thing is , he always does it to me not me to him and im scared to start doing it to him as i know he has had sex with previous girlfriends😭 any advice??