Update:

Seen the specialist just now. The baby’s sac has bell shaped and is already showing signs that it will rupture. She can’t predict when this will occur and can’t chance me going along to wait and see. I’m heartbroken. Tomorrow I have to come to get an injection in my leg and one through my vaginal area into the sac. I wanted to hold this baby and know him so bad. This is the worst feeling.

Went in for my 7 week ultrasound and seen the baby measured perfectly and the heart beat is in the 150s.

When dr came in he started with I’m concerned for you and then I think my mind might have went blank. He continued saying that the baby is very low and they believe the baby has implanted INSIDE my previous C-section scar.

((I have four other children and have had four previous c sections.))

He explained this is very rare and I’d need to get to a specialist right away because the baby is still growing and I can rupture and bleed internally and well he said die.

((This is called cesarean scar ectopic pregnancy))

I immediately thought about my other children and how I need to be here for them. But my heart hurts because I know I can’t safely bring this baby growing inside me into the world. I’m so sad and scared.

I go into a specialist Thursday to confirm what they see and then will have to basically terminate my baby so I can survive. My heart is broken.

I’m so blessed to have my four healthy babies here but my heart is so heavy for this baby we’ve already grown to love.