How am I supposed to feel? You come home and you’re not really talking to me. You don’t eat the food I made yesterday. You haven’t kissed me. You’re ignoring me and have both headphones on. I try to talk to you and you make it clear you don’t want to talk. I leave you alone for an hour or more and when I come down to feed the dog, you’re still ignoring me. You walk past me as if I don’t exist. I come upstairs once he’s done eating and you’re sitting on your gaming chair instead of the bed and you’re just eating and staring at the wall while you still have both headphones on just blaring music? As I try to make a conversation you tell me to just leave you alone that I don’t always have to know everything and butt in….?

He picks up his plate and walks away. He’s taking his time downstairs trying to avoid me.

Normally I’d think it’s any other day but it’s different.

2 days ago we talked about an issue we had going on. He broke my trust (fairly recent) and I was triggered by something he did. He understood and made me feel acknowledged. Although there wasn’t a solution then and there, it was something that was going to take time to build. The next day, one thing led to another and we started to have sex. But midway, I felt off. It wasn’t feeling pleasurable anymore and I told him to stop. He did and told me it was okay. He held me for a bit and then kissed my forehead and got dressed and laid in bed. It was kind of awkward after that. We were in the same room but we weren’t talking. He was playing his video game and I was watching my show. It was off. I drifted off to bed and this is how he reacts today. Idk what to think. And with him not willing to talk about it, I’m kept in the dark. It’s not fair.