I’m setting myself up mentally for my second abortion for the same reasons I got the first one the guys isn’t ready after selling me a pipe dream I feel very stupid used an just empty and not enough I’m enough for them to want to have sex with but nothing further then that no commitment no family and I rather be alone then to be with someone that does not want a future with me I feel like I let myself down an it’s one minute keep it next I don’t want it an I can’t deal with that oh I don’t wanna break up but I know me mentally I know imma shut him out because I can’t trust him anymore