Trying to stay positive and be excited

Samantha • Double Rainbow baby born 🌈 Dec 2018

I have a very complicated pregnancy history. I have had 2 ectopic pregnancies , 2 missed miscarriages and multiple pregnancy losses so maybe you can understand why is hesitant to be excited. Luckily I have been blessed with two boys or else I probably wouldn’t still be trying. Anyways I am 10 dpo today EDD is April 30th. I had a little spotting yesterday but trying to keep my positive because I have a beautiful test today and two days ago it was negative not Evan a faint line so hopefully this one sticks around