Need to vent so I stop balling my eyes out.

My husband and I were ttc for 15 months when I finally got pregnant. I lost my baby and my right tube on March 21st. I had really hoped that I would get pregnant last month because my due date would’ve been around when my surgery happened, but that month came and went and I’m still not pregnant again.

Well today I got a text from my sister in law that she is pregnant and due at the end of March… I’m happy for her because her and her husband have been trying for over 3 years, but I just can’t stop crying and thinking about how every time I look at her baby I’m gonna remember my surgery and how I lost my baby and how she finally gets her baby and mine is gone with no rainbow baby in sight.

I had just started to feel a little better with therapy and other stuff and now I feel like I just got knocked down and feel like how I did when I first found out about my ectopic all over again.

I don’t really know what to do or how to navigate this now. 😕