Family assault

Hi. I’ve never mentioned anything like this before. My friends and partner know that I was salted and raped at a very young age but I’ve never let on that it’s a very close family member. So close that I should’ve cut them off and hate them for that entire reason. But I never did. I have cut them off for other reasons but that always felt like a fever dream. I’m sure someone understand what it is like to grow up with this secret and have to decide later in life what to do