About a year and a half ago I was diagnosed with endometrial cancer while starting <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> treatments because my husband and I were having trouble getting pregnant. We've been trying for 6 years now. My treatment lasted 6 months and it was just having an IUD in that put off medication to help keep my lining reduced. My IUD has been out since January. We've gone through 3 more rounds of <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IUI</a> and all failed. Now I'm waiting to have an appointment for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. It's been a rollercoaster of feelings. During this time I've also been diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I feel like I'm just going down the drain. So many people around me are getting pregnant. Even close friends of mine. I truly want to be happy for them but I just don't understand why my life and my body are betraying me. Why can't I have the one thing I want the most? I get so frustrated, angry, sad...all these mixed emotions. I feel betrayal from my body. Like it doesn't want me to be happy and experience these loving times. I know there's adoption and fostering which I truly don't mind doing but honestly I want to have one child of my own. I want to experience pregnancy, child birth, and the connection you have with your newborn. I'm honestly just looking to get my feelings out somewhere that my pregnant friends don't see because all I want them to know is I'm happy for them.