I posted this twice. I am not sure which category this belongs

I met him about 4-5 months ago and we started dating recently. I find him to be so attractive and his personality is so good and he is very intelligent! I really don't wanna loose him. When we initially had sex, it was really good and he was very gentle with me.

I have issues with my uterus, there is something in there causing a bit of pain during sex... I find out what's wrong with me in 2 weeks. He is aware and this is why he was gentle initially. I also have sexual trauma from my past (he does not know).

As time went by, I noticed sex got more and more rough. At first he would choke and do a few slaps and probably go a bit harder than usual. I didn't like the slaps and he stopped it but everything else got more severe

He started to go really deep and rough in sex.

Like he has a big D so when he goes all the way inside it hurts. I thought I was abnormal given the fact that I have medical issues so I would just let him do it. I didn't wanna seem a "weirdo" who is always in pain during sex

He then started to go really reallyyyyy hard and rough during sex. The last few times we had sex, he would be on top of me and grab my shoulders to kinda push me towards him or he would hug me and then he would thrust his penis into me really fast and super hard as if he used all his power and it would be RANDOM. Like it would be rough and then BOOM, it would be one of the hardest thrust ever! It feels like rape. And I would be visibly uncomfortable and scared but I don't know if this is something normal.

Last time during sex he did the random super hard and forceful and fast thrust a few times

RANDOMLY ! Right after he did it I told him to stop because it scares me and it hurts when he does it. He said "I know"'and that I can "take" it and that he kinda likes that it scares me. I TOLD HIM DO NOT DO IT AGAIN and he responded

"you can handle it". I'll try to move away from him and he would hold me tighter.. I will say "ow it hurts" and he will do a few more thrust and then stop to check if I am okay. Last time we had sex, he said "I love how you try to run away" tbh I was shocked and Idk what to say,

I remember thinking "wow I don't wanna have sex with him anymore".. it's like I'm nothing to him

and he doesn't care if I don't get pleasure from it.

I noticed that I would get some small linear tears after sex. It is very small and heals like in a day or two but also my insides feel weird. I will cramp a lot after sex. I'm scared that he would damage me during sex. I don't know what to do or say. like I really like him but I just want sex to be more pleasing. I sometimes think if this is going to kinda define our relationship? Like is he going to have this attitude toward different aspects of our relationship?

I have sexual trauma so I don't know how to respond mentally. Sex is not my favourite thing because of it. I never told him about it. I am just confused and I don't know what to say to him or how to even have this conversation without it affecting our relationship. I need some advice