Starting to worry.

I’ve had four losses and idk if I can take another. My appointment is on Wednesday but I just don’t know. I’ve had some small discomfort right above my ribs under my boobs while laying down. And then some pinkish when I wipe like 3-4 times a day. Usually this color below or a little brighter. But it’s never a lot or super dark red. I’m just discouraged and talking myself into believing it’s a loss before the doctors visit so I can mourn on my own before hand 😫