I’ve been with my husband for 8 years. We’ve been through ALOT from me working and being the main financial provider and him staying home with our baby but almost rarely cleaning & keeping the house tidy. To his mother not liking me and him making excuses for her (she kept him and my daughter with her in Mother’s Day all day.. 🙃 while I was at home and didn’t even care to think maybe I wanted my family with me on that day (this is just a snippet and example of how she is so that you’ll have an idea) to recently my husband talking sexually and flirting with a few women even after I found out the first time and told him how I felt about the matter and him getting caught and doing it again anyways. I now feel as if I’m at this point where I want to work on myself more now. I have lost 20 pounds and I plan on losing more so that I’m back in shape again because I’ve been overweight after having my baby. I finally went out with A friend to a music festival this weekend and I have NEVER been out before without my husband. Either we go just me and him or we go with his friends. I never really cared to have friends but now, I’m very open to making friends and going out. Not to clubs or anything but to festivals, lounges etc. (I’ve been sober for 4 years so I don’t drink alcohol by choice) but I’ve been having these horrible cravings to start drinking again in moderation or course and to drink socially. I don’t want other men or attention from any males.. I feel like I want to create a NEW me.. like the old me but better? Idk what’s going on here?? Is this normal have any wives or long term GF’s been through this before? How common is this?