17 days late

Love

I am 17 days late and I just went potty and saw a very very small spec of pink and I could CRY. I’m at work so I have to hold back tears but after 4 miscarriages and 12 negative tests in the last 2 weeks I just want to go home and cry my life away. I am So happy for everyone with their beautiful babies and BFP but when is it my turn. This whole process is just overwhelming and I gave up on trying. Then my period was late and all the emotions and feeling of wanting a baby came rushing back just to lead me to disappointment yet again. I’m just so tired.