Hi ladies i am feeling really down today and lately and need some support .. if you know I met my hubby at 20 he was 23 and it was just a connection right away we were long distant . I was just dealing and getting out of a abusive relationship before I got to meet him he went to jail for a year we fell off after a few months we got back together few months after he got out , I was a dancer at the time he found out and gave me the choice to move or stay and I moved long story short I cane back to Cali no family here just his family I had no job no money and he kept cheating on me because he found out but mind I he was cheating before he found out I was dancing he never cared about adult responsibilities insurance tickets typical adult stuff .. anyways a year after that he gets sentence to prison for 4.5 years we got married I stayed here to wait celebrating holidays every weekend with his family took care of him to while he was in our last conjugal visit I got pregnsnt with our daughter and he works now but he’s using fentanyl since she was 3 months old she’s 9.5 months old post partum has been rough for me as well I’m in therapy .. and he’s just making shit harder tickets speeding ticks we are financially behind tell him not to speed because we have no insurance or registration and gets pulled over also crashes the car after I just financed it over a year ago I told him today that I need more it’s not enough he can do better and he got really upset says he doesn’t want ti change or be responsible u knew who u got with I just want to feel like he’s sharing the load I am taking care of everything I feel like pushing him to even go to the dmv for his Liscense just be more responsible why do I have to push you to get your shit in order I feel bad like I’m being needy but I want the best for our family I will be going back to school and getting my cosmetology Liscense to benefit me and my daughter just goals ambition drive he’s content on idk I feel like I’m prison I cut him off emotionally and now post partum isnt helping i feel stuck he’s our provider he doesn’t know how to manage money either he will spend his money like he expecting it to just land in his pocket or something and im stressed that we are behing on insurance registration got 4 fat tickets all because he doesn’t want to listen I’m Srry I needed to vent girlies he’s scared that if he tries to do more he’s going to go to prison I said no there’s legal ways to do things to build financial freedom I need advice it feels like we hit the bottom and we just can’t agree or it’s tit for tat he says I’m just here with our daughter u ain’t doing nothing being a stay at home mom isn’t easy some days I offer to go to marriage counseling he doesn’t want to go I’ve been seeing a therapist for months now i had severe anxiety and just trying to pick up all the pieces I feel like I want more want to grow when I met him I didn’t have any expectations really and now I’m 28 he’s 30 we had a baby like u don’t want to do more for your daughter be the best version of yourself I’m not asking him to change I just want to step it up and stand on business