Pregnancy after loss

Hi, I am currently going through <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a> and had a transfer on the 19th September, took a test today 4dpt and it’s very faint. I can’t seem to process it and be excited after having two early miscarriages. I feel like it isn’t real. I’m so scared, do these look ok for today? Feel like I constantly need reassurance.