Hi all ! I’m this far along but mentally feel further and it’s bothering me ! I heard my baby little baby heart beat and saw my lil bean on the 20th. Last period was July 7th I know everyones ovulation is different it’s just mentally I’m not all the way yay 😫😂😭🤌🏽 Yes I’m pregnant yes my baby is okay and my first actual ultrasound is on oct 25. I just felt so connected with my first pregnancy and this one I don’t want to do the logs and charts on the apps because I don’t know 🤷🏽‍♀️. I’m just having a hard time accepting where I am in the pregnancy. Does that make sense ? I’m absolutely happy with this pregnancy and I’m so glad my baby is there and strong but lord why do I feel such a disconnection? I get real bloated then I can eat for a whole day or so and get so weak. I’m 113 which means I lost weight and everyone blows off my concerns saying it will be a month or so before I start really gaining and showing and I know I have extra fat from my first little that I can’t suck in anymore.. so I guess the bloated days I’m grossed out with my self because I’m not that far along to look so fat and on the days I’m weak and tiny I’m disappointed in myself too and I don’t even know why. Lmfao anyone else ? My first little bean 🥹 he is so excited for his little sibling ! We are manifesting a girl because that’s what dad wants lmfaooo idc what we have I will love that baby with all of me… I just want this to go by fast 😂😭😭😪