For my mental health. I’m so depressed. Like severely depressed I think. I’m having suicidal thoughts every single day and I keep thinking I just want to give up and die. I have kids and I’m feeling so selfish because I still want to die. But I know I can’t leave them behind. I feel like a bad mom for even having these thoughts. I am trying to get into see a therapist. Just waiting on a call. I’m hoping I can find the right medicine pretty quickly but from what I’m told it takes a while. I’ve always been so against taking meds but I realize now that I absolutely need it. I don’t know how much more of this I can take without meds. I’m hoping I get in pretty soon. I’m going through ALOT right now so please just send positive vibes/prayers my way…