My kids are my “why”

They are the reason why I still continue even when I just feel like giving up. I am a psychologist, I help people through their mental health and difficulties every single day but it’s starting to be too much on my head. I don’t even know how to describe how I feel often but it’s too much. I keep going because of my kids, they need me. Sometimes I wish I had a friend or just anyone to talk to, I’m not ready to talk to a professional yet. I have a lot of worries about being misjudged and the possible effect that getting help may have on me and my career