For the longest time, i have had the hardest time losing weight. I have been fat-shamed all my life either being bullied growing up and my family. I stopped trying to eat healthy and exercise bc no matter what deit I go on or how many sports I do I couldn't lose weight. Because of this, I hate eating in front of people because I feel like everyone is judging me. Like I try to avoid getting a lot of food in a restaurant and would rather starve later bc if my capacity of eating shrinks I wouldn't eat as much. Drinking water for example has been hard bc that's what I was told would clear up my acne and help stop weight gain. Now with my boyfriend, I feel like I embarrass him bc I'm bigger and his family is active. Then when I'm around them, I'm the sore thumb and I eat like I have never eaten before. Im trying to lose weight to be better I just don't know where to start. I wanna do it for me and for him I just don't wanna do 2 years of work and nothing changes. I just don't know what to do…