whenever I pass by my mom's room and she sees me, she raises her voice and says: what are you doing here? when I talk to her, 80% of the conversation is her saying "you should have done this" or "you could have done that." when she's wrong about it or I say that she shouldn't live in regret, she raises her voice and tells me that I am disrespectful or ungrateful. when she asks me questions, she would ask 10 at a time and not let me answer them. now I have severe social anxiety/panic attacks when people ask me questions. she also in the past has told me to kill myself, how to do it and for me to give her my money before I do because I was dating someone she didn't like. she argued that it was okay for her to say that because I was suicidal in the past and always said that I wanted to kill myself when I got angry with how she treated me. how much of her behavior is verbally/psychologically abusive and am I in the wrong in any of these situations I mentioned here?