Pregnancy loss

I went to the doctors this morning for a routine checkup, she tried the doppler couldnt find a heartbeat then a portable ultrasound again no heartbeat and then they moved me to a real ultrasound and no heartbeat my baby was supposed to be 14 weeks old and was only measuring 11 weeks and 4 days

im so heartbroken and confused ive had multiple ultrasounds to watch a hematoma next to my baby and make sure it reabsorbed and he was fine on all also had a blood test to see what the gender was and it came back normal and he was a boy, i dont know how to deal with all these emotions i am scheduled for a d&c tomorrow morning but none of this feels real heres my last ultrasound with a heartbeat at almost 11 weeks