So I’m 21 years old. My husband is 23. I've had baby fever since I was 18, and I have obtained a level of maturity to understand that babies are not a walk in the park nor are they toys. I choose not to have kids at the moment especially since my husband and I both work nearly 3 jobs separately meaning, there’s no time for a baby. Together, we work 5-6 jobs. I don't know why I want to be a mother, this feels so illogical especially since I know that I have too many jobs to even handle a baby and I wouldn't want to give my baby to a daycare practically a stranger to raise. I want to be an active mother. What exactly do I do? What steps can I even do to prepare to prepare myself to have a baby? I fear I’m too career-focused but everyone around me seems to love reminding me of my biological clock. I'm so lost, what direction do I go in? I wish this was easy, I wish when we had kids we’d get intense support from everyone but unfortunately I know that won't be my circumstance besides my husband supporting me I would be on my own. I'm truly scared of missing out on my chance to be a mother but I’m even more scared of not being able to provide for my child.