So I’ve been married going on 10 years and it is or shall I say have gone downhill tremendously. Where do I start? When I first met my my soon to be ex husband he did nice shit and so did I. Well years into our relationship he has stopped 90% of what he did to get me. I still go out my way to do nice shit, buy tickets to his NFL team “good seats”.

So on my birthday he supposedly booked a room but kept mentioning multiple times how much he paid to “reserve” and blah blah blah. I asked how much did he pay $800, and he was like “Noooo” as if he wouldn’t spend that on me or I’m not worth it, granted I’m a simple girl and never ask for shit. So I just told him to cancel reservations and we ended up going to a water park. OK fine.

As a mom and wife I try to make sure everyone is happy. I cook, I clean, I work full-time, I bathe my kid 99% of the time while he does the other 1%, full time AND we own a business together; you know typical parent shit. Our kid bedtime is 8p, he recently changed his schedule to 9-6p meaning he would only spend time 2-3 hours with her a day.

Our kid started daycare a month ago and I have to keep reminding him when tuition is due and he didn’t have his half this week?!?!? Granted our business is new, however we both work full-time jobs and he gets paid way more than me. He drinks alcohol like a fish, he doesn’t give me attention unless he wants sex, idk girls im just hurt and burnt out so im all over the place. Last year he lied on my birthday that he hasn’t been looking at boobs and ass although I had screenshots in my phone. That has also been going on for years and I think now he’s just good at hiding it.

I started the gym yesterday and started eating clean to try and find myself again because I can just feel me losing myself all together.

I’ve never been married before so idk the process of separation in the state of NC. I’m just so ready to find myself again and be happy, even if it’s just me and my baby girl. Any advice would be great. Thanks for listening to me vent.