My partner and I previously lived together and had a child. The relationship was toxic and unhealthy. We started dating in 2016. We dealt with porn addiction and him constantly hiding it, which damaged our sex life. He would constantly “break up” with me in order to go do something he knew I wouldn’t be okay with. For example, go drink at a house where a girl was that I had already questioned him about. He claimed her to be a cousin. Just recently found out they did indeed kiss. This happened April of 2020. I gave it one more chance, but I found out he was using iFunny for nudes. Since then I emotionally checked out, I moved out October of 2020. However, we tried multiple times since then and have never stopped messaging or stopped sex. Although, over the years, it has been a struggle to get him to cum. He says the feeling would come, but nothing would come out. He says he always squeezed his legs together instead of jacking off to bring on the feeling and cum doesn’t happen then either. He thinks that’s the issue, but going from cumming every time, multiple times a day. It’s definitely a downer on my confidence. We’ve recently tried to work things out again. During our break, he always told me that he wasn’t having sex with other people and I believed him. But I recently found out that wasn’t true and that there were several. He says he wasn’t able to cum with them either, but it’s really in my head that maybe it’s me that’s the problem. I know he’s really trying to be a better partner than he was before, but I’m having trouble getting it out of my head of him being with other people since we were each others first. I want to be able to move on and get rid of these thoughts, but I’m having such a hard time getting it out of my head. Is it possible to move on from this?