Since April. I’ve been going to the gym. When I started, one of the fitness trainers started talking to me as he saw me round. I could tell he was attracted to me and he seemed kind.

After his classes, he would come and talk to me. Even compliment me and said ‘you look really beautiful.’ Eventually he asked me out for a drink.

We had a lot of chemistry on the date, a lot of kissing. But then I realised he was very forward and got the impression he just wanted sex

I was right as on the second date, he told me he was just looking for fun. I decided to go with it and end up sleeping with him

But the sex wasn’t great. He rushed things without much foreplay. He wouldn’t go down on me as he said he’s never done it before but then asked me to give him a blow job. He even didn’t bring condoms and I had to rummage around in my drawers to find some. Then afterwards he got up and said ‘I don’t mean to be cheap but I have to get home to my dog.’ He left and never texted me again

This has sent me into such anxiety. I’ve been to the gym a few times, he still says hello but I feel embarrassed. I’ve been avoiding his class for weeks but it was part of my routine :(

Tonight his class is on again and I don’t know if it’s weird if I go. I feel really sad about the situation and can’t stop worrying it means I’m not sexy or did something wrong.