So to sum up my crazy life so far my husband and I have been together for MANY years. Within this past year I couldn’t handle it anymore. I never felt like he truly loved me or chose me throughout our relationship. It got so bad he told me to stop talking to him and he didn’t like being around me. There was even one instance of physical abuse.

-what I did wasn’t right but there’s no excuse to make your partner feel unsafe-

I chose to seek a divorce. Paid for an attorney and all. Sadly I also chose to start an affair a few months ago. He’s known about it this whole time. He states the affair “made something click” and he realizes how bad things have been. He truly has seemed to change but I was so skeptical, until recently. I’ve found out I’m pregnant and it’s not his. He is still begging me to stay saying once our kid and this new baby are grown up and out of the house it’ll still be us left and that’s all he truly wants is us to be together. He even wants to work with the other person involved so we can all be involved in the child’s life. Idk if it’s the hormones or what but I’ve started to change my mind about the divorce and I’m really struggling here. I do truly love him and never wanted to marry him thinking this would happen.

Any advice??