Venting

Im feeling kind of down rn because i recently just got a promotion and ik you’re thinking thats great news bc it is but money is so tight right now , even with my pay raise im hundreds behind on bills and i have a 8 month old. Im a Bonus mom of two and my partner works but im the bread winner so alot of the financial decisions and budgeting falls on me. I dont want to make him seem like a bad guy bc he’s not . I just always applied myself more than average bc i needed to make something of myself with no college degree. I’ve always made more than anyone ive dated ts not anything new but its the simple fact that in this economy with 3 children it’s becoming such a burden on me. When we get paid its neverr enough to completely pay bills maybe just enough to put one or two off till next check but i count every penny to the T , n im so tired of living in this life. I want to be spoiled, i want to spend on myself, man i want this weight lifted off my shoulders. I want to buy myself a nice dress or a pair of shoes without pocket watching. Its getting to the point where i start getting unreasonably annoyed and resentful.