Chemical pregnancy, after an ectopic in Feb.

Hi everybody,

This week we were told we were having an early miscarriage/ chemical pregnancy and In February we lost a pregnancy that was an ectopic.

I feel pregnant with this second loss in October which is the month our baby that ended in ectopic pregnancy was due. The day we realised I was pregnant again we walked outside and saw a beautiful rainbow, I felt sure it was our baby coming back to us. With it ending in our second loss I am heartbroken and a shell of a person. I have been dragged straight back to where I was in February after my emergency surgery after making such progress. Each loss take a a part of me with them and I just don't know how I can keep going through this pain. I feel so conflicted about if I even want to keep trying.

We have two incredible boys and so badly want that third and final peice to our puzzle, but part of me just feels like to keep trying will ruin me and my mental health an a that isn't fair to my boys or my loving husband