6 Days Late

So here I am at soon to be 42 in April and my period is six days late. Back in September it was 5 days late and I got excited until it showed up. I currently am only experiencing light cramping here and there but nothing indicating anything. I lightly spotted three days ago so I thought she was coming. Nothing. Every bathroom trip, clean as a whistle. I have not been stressed, no major changes other than accepting we may not conceive and considering just getting a dog. But here I am today, googling, checking WebMD, reading and analyzing my cycle chart and talking to my womb to not play tricks on my emotions. I’m scared to take a pregnancy test and it comes up negative….. again. I haven’t told anyone because who wants that embarrassment if I’m not. Ugh I hate this so much. Venting here because this is literally my only safe space where I’m not looked at as the crazy person. What is a girl to do? If another week goes by I’ll test then, maybe.