Scared

I am absolutely terrified that there is something wrong. I am currently 15 weeks pregnant and I am so scared that I’m going to lose this baby too. On January 26,2024 I had my second loss that time at 13 weeks. It absolutely destroyed me. My last doctor didn’t check my progesterone and I bled for 2 weeks before losing him. Pathology said everything was perfectly healthy and so i feel like it was my fault. I got pregnant in October with an IUI (with a fertility specialist due to my PCOS). This baby was a miracle (I tested two weeks after the IUI and it was negative, we waited 2 more weeks for my period to come and it didn’t so my doctor went to check for a cyst and she saw a baby and immediately put me on progesterone. Everything has been perfectly healthy since then. No bleeding, still throwing up, round ligament pain and every ultrasound has been good and we can see the heart beat and everything. I should be over the moon excited but I am so scared that I’ve going to mess something up or lose this one. We have an ultrasound with a private company on my husband’s birthday this week and I’m terrified that they won’t see a heart beat. I am so scared that I’m going to lose this baby too. No one around me has gone through losses before (had another one at 6 weeks in 2021) so I feel like I can’t talk to anyone and I don’t know how to have peace about this pregnancy or if it’s even possible to stop or chill out the worrying.