I am mentally worn down 🫠

This fall and winter has been an absolute nightmare.

Work has been stressful, we've all been sick, I had issues with my teeth causing a lot of pain, my thyroid is enlarged and Im currently waiting on a scan and its all giving me sooooo much anxiety.

I can't remember when I last had a full week of feeling normal.

I have something important coming up at work, but honestly im struggling to not break down crying when I have to go in. And when I work from home i struggle to meet my hours.

Today I feel like one of my boobs are hurting and I cant stop thinking what in im full of cancer? What if I'm dying? What about my kids? What about my husband?

I've tried medication but I felt so awful I dont dare take it anymore. It made everything worse.

My blood tests are all normal so far. Its all pointing towards stress. Yet I can't stop thinking something else is wrong. I feel so off and weak and its nothing like that stress I've had earlier in life.

I just want to feel better. And move on.

I feel so hopeless at the moment 😢

Thanks for reading 🙏🏻