Should i cut ties...( long read)

Feel guilty cutting parent off

My mom isn't as bad as alot of people here but I just can't do it anymore. I told myself once I'm done with school I'm leaving the state.

With my mom I do not feel the respect at all. It only goes one way and that's here's. Some examples are this

I was evicted from my apartment I tried to save it but I couldn't. Now I stay with my mom in a hotel.

With my daughter I put a shirt on her it was clean and fine. My daughter didn't want to wear it but I said no that she could have a different shirt tommowo. Well my mom looked in my bins and got a shirt out... the shirt she was wearing was what I bought for my daught3r to wear tommow.

Then my mom owes me money. She tells me she already paid me back and I check my bank statements ( we zelle) and she hasn't and it's like any time she has to pay me back she has an attitude.

Then. I buy groceries for the house and I got poptarts for my brother and only got 1 out of the pack just one... my mom confronted me saying that's his stuff, I can't take his stuff. I see if I ate the entire box but I bought them.. I said I could replace them. She said I' don't care that's his stuff ask him ( remember. I bought them lol) then when I bought a 4 pack drink for myself ... they drank my shit up.. when I confronted them.. my mom said.. " I'll replace them." LOL

Then my son with autism. I can only do so much with him. I try to keep him quiet but I have a brother that's high functioning and she's more understanding of his issues but not my non verbal 5yr old. Then my kids can't get on thr beds. They're always told to get down and my son sleeps on the floor with me..

And today my mom told how my daughter is so different and a far cry from who I am and that as a kid all I did was cry and cry. As an adult now that struggles with anxiety I know that's what I was most likely dealing with even then .but my daughter whom I adore is friendly,sweet and outgoing.. but I'm like damn. I just wonder if my mom low key resents me

Since I've been a mom and in nursing school I just haven't been treated the kindest..

My dad is no longer in my life thank God so I don't have to worry about him( he was toxic as hell too) but I just feel like I'm being mean if I cut my mom off ... but the respect isn't there ... just isn't. I feel bad bc my mom was the parent that stayed and raised me and my siblings but.. I never felt I could talk to her and confide in her at all.. Despite the bs I deal I try not to snap on my kids and just. Speak positively over them.

Like I said the respect isn't there then the constant gaslighting of ," ive done so much for you" even though between her and my dad no one taught me shit. Not how to drive, nothing about finances, not even sex Ed but at 33 I keep my feelings inside bc I feel there's no use bringing it up. I have to pick up where they left off. My mom has had a pretty troubled childhood so I just try to let shit go.. I wanted to stay with my mom till I finished nursing school but idk if I can..

After taxes I may leave and get my own hotel.

. I think I'll still help my mom once there's alot of space and distance between us.@G- yes im 33 but i fell on hardtimes.. i had an accident that caused me to lose my.job. and i couldnt financially recover. I had my own place. Dont br an asshole. Im.just venting @Kassity- thank you for your kind comment.@Casey- its hard to let go when its thrown up in my face( me being a bad driver--gonna pay for lessons)