Ok, just have to say it, I fucking hate people.

I’m a jealous bitch, I know it. Do you know how upset I get when people announce their pregnancies or actually have the baby, then parade it around at family functions? Yes, I’m happy for them, but I just want to scream when it happens.

I was actually at a pro baseball game in the Spring when I went to the bathroom and every single woman was either pregnant or with a baby or small child. It was like being in hell. I had a full on panic attack and was hyperventilating in the hallway.

What pisses me off even more is seeing shit people with their kids with them outside with no coat on in below freezing weather, screaming at them in Walmart, or just being shit parents. It’s like the universe just looks down and snickers at me when this happens, because they get to be parents and I don’t?

Even worse, I totally could’ve have sex in high school but I was terrified of getting pregnant. Teen pregnancy and wedlock was rampant in my mom’s family. Joke’s on me, I really regret not being more of a slut…

And of course I’m not rich, so adoption and surrogacy will never happen.

So, how am I supposed to not be depressed?