Baby #3

I dont like questioning god or asking why me I feel like certain things just aren't meant for us humans to know...but literally everything in my life lately is making me feel like i shouldve never became anyone's mother . Im losing my oldest to a person who has failed to protect her innocence..and i feel stuck with my son and this new baby i dont see their dad being there as we had planned...every single day i wanna give up. I have giving every ounce of myself to my kids and still can only feel like ive failed as their mother..i feel so alone..my first ultrasound is on the 12 and i feel like im becoming depressed...i dont believe in abortion or giving my kids away..i just dont know how to feel anymore moving forward. All i do is pray and do everything i can to make sure my babies are happy healthy and taken care of the best way i know how.