Venting 🙇🏽‍♀️

I’m at the point of my TTC journey when I don’t even want to test, when seeing the negative test gets to be too difficult and waiting for Mother Nature seems easier. There have been so many months when I thought this was it, it’s finally my turn..then a couple days later I get the brown spotting, then a full blown period. I used to it, I suppose, as aggravating as it can be; I have faith that it will be my turn one day.

This month is throwing me through a loop because

1. My tell-tale brown spotting that I get every month is not present at 3 days late.

2. I had these weird mild cramps the last few days on and off; plus butt-vagina cramps at 13dpo that lasted all day.

3. My boobs have been off and on tender, heavy and sore!

4. I feel, I think as if my period is not coming, but I don’t want to get to my hopes.. this is honestly one of the most agonizing things woman have to deal with.