Finding the right toy

Hi! I first experienced my first orgasm with my husband and it was magical lol. I want to feel that feeling again but i have no idea how. My husband comes home 1-3 times a week, due to his nature of work and I want to pleasure myself sometimes when I'm Just by myself, but i always stop myself because I'm embarrassed and I don't know how anymore. Lately my urges are out of control and wanted to try toys.

Usually my Os come by being on top of him and rubbing myself on him while he's in me. I'm not sure what toy or thing i should do to replicate that feeling. I haven't used any toys in my life, only lefty and righty haha. Any tips ladies? Sorry for bad English