asexuals: have you come to terms with your sexuality?

i've known i don't feel as deeply about relationships as most people and sex has never felt right for me. however the idea is very appealing and i wish to be in a relationship but feel as if i was just built broken. do i give up? do i throw myself into a sexless relationship? am i unfulfilled or jealous of an ability i lack? am i in denial? is it trauma or just how i am? many questions i'll need to figure out. How have you dealt with being this way? is it comfort in the familiar (no pleasure) or a longing for the impossible?