My boyfriend thinks I’m lazy
I just graduated college and I’m finding it really difficult to navigate everything now that I’m really out there in the real world. I dont have a car which I’m stressed about because no serious job is going to hire me without a reliable way to get to and from work. I feel lost and overwhelmed because I need money (my family and I have always struggled with money) and want to progress in life but I feel stuck. In having a partner you would think you should be able to go to them for advice and support when you are feeling down, but not mine. My boyfriend (just turned 20) and me (about to turn 22), work at McDonald’s together currently. He didn’t go to college on account that he thinks it’s a waste of time so he has worked at our McDonald’s full time for a while. I had been going back and forth from college to work weekends because I was a full time student but I was trying to get at least some money to help my family out with rent. Made about 230$ a week which I never saw a cent of because it all went to my mother for rent which he would never understand (we are not as well off as he is…my mother works 3 jobs to make ends meet). I have really been feeling the pressure of post college life and I tried talking to him about it but he was completely unsupportive. Basically saying they I’m lazy and that me not having a car or money is my fault because I “don’t want to work”. For some context hours at our McDonald’s are high so my boss was only scheduling me for one day a week so i haven’t been making a lot lately. But according to him that’s my fault and I’m lazy for not having 2-3 jobs. To him I am also being dramatic because I need to learn about the real world and I need to grow up, I’m being a baby (this coming from someone who is 2 years younger than me). I already feel like a failure because I am having trouble finding a job in my career due to a lack of car, and I feel like I’m letting people down and he just made me feel 100x worse. Him saying that I’m lazy and don’t want to work really hurt me because right now, that’s all I want to do. I have absolutely no control over when or how often my boss schedules me but again according to my partner that’s my fault too because I could just get a second job. For context I only graduated college a week and a half ago and I feel like he wants so much out of me. I just want him to respect me as a person and understand that I’m trying my hardest right now to progress in my life but he can’t see that, all he sees is a lazy piece of crap. I have applied to 5 jobs in the field I studied in college but all of them dont want to hire me because I dont have a car. Idk I guess that this is my mistake for thinking that I could seek support from my boyfriend. Am I wrong? Do I need to have 2-3 jobs right now? Am I lazy? He’s so adamant about his stance on this that I’m starting to think maybe I am the problem. I don’t know.