No sex after marriage

I've been into a 5 year of married relation with my boyfriend. I know know him from 14-15 years. But from the day 1 of our marriage I've been very unlucky in the matter of physical intimacy. I don't know how to do I satisfy myself. I desire love ,I desire intimacy but I don't know where the problem is. I really want to quit my married life with my husband as I never got what I deserved and desired off from him. Tried to talk to him over this matter but always ended up as a fighting wife although me never having intentions to fight still. I don't know where life is going!!!!! I have a 2 year old son which I was blessed with after soooo many efforts and tries of conceiving 😞 . I wish to have physical intimacy .. I want love care.. I want to have a baby but😞

I feel hopeless everyday .....😞 can't process the things , I don't know what to do 😞😞