Depression..due to TTC

Chrisann
November 24, 2014 I gained my angel baby. Been trying to get re pregnant ever since that day. (Well when doc gave the ok).. The Day before Christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> I received a SMALL line. But after thinking I noticed the line about 2-3 hours after test taken. I walked into the bathroom to see the line and cried tears of joy not once thinking of evap lines.. Then proceeded to test on another more expensive test and it was clearly negative.. Just finished taking another test and negative still. (So deff must of been evap)  Was suppose to receive AF Christmas Day. Still no AF. This was my second month on 1500mg metfromin (which been on this for years) and 1000mg of Clomid.. All home test not showing I ovulated. Blood work showed having a 90% chance of ovulation. I have PCOS. And I am overweight. My mom seems to think if I lose weight I'd have a better chance. (I've suffered from eating disorders in the past) so the thought of me being fat is really destroying me on the inside. Anyone else ever feel like this? I really need someone to talk to who understands.